The Currency of Grace
Twenty-one years ago, I gave God thirty days to prove He was real. This past week marked the anniversary of the experiment that changed everything and saved my life.
Each anniversary, I write something about that time, that season, trying to show it from a new angle. But this time, as I sat down to write, I remembered that I was still holding something back.
Quietly, last year, I recorded the audiobook version of A Row With Two Chairs, the memoir that tells the story of that impossible adventure. I spent hours alone in a dark booth, re-living every scene—the wreckage, the grace, the slow rebuilding of a life. When it was done, I had this perfectly mastered version of the book.
And then I did nothing with it.
Nothing.
Maybe I was afraid it wasn’t ready. Maybe it was me that wasn’t ready.
I told myself I was saving it for the right launch, or the right partnership, or the right “moment.” The truth is, I didn’t know if my vocal performance could really carry such a weighted story, and didn’t know how to release it without feeling like I was putting a price tag on something sacred.
I mean, how do you put a price a story about grace?
How do you monetize your own rescue?
Every time I thought about publishing, I felt an ache I couldn’t explain. I’d been saved by something freely given, and yet here I was, trying to package it. The story that once rescued me now felt trapped—not behind a paywall, but behind my hesitation and a world of expectation.
This just didn’t fit.
So this week, on the anniversary of the day everything changed, I made chose a different path.
I would give the audiobook away.
No launch plan. No funnel. No transaction.
Just grace, given freely, the way it found me.
Chapter by chapter, I’m releasing A Row With Two Chairs as a podcast. It’s raw, imperfect, and honest. You can listen anywhere podcasts live.
The story began in grace, it should be released in grace.
Maybe someone needs it today who can’t buy it.
Maybe you know them.
Maybe it’s you.
Twenty-one years ago, that someone was me.
🎧 A Row With Two Chairs: Creating a Life Worth Saving is now streaming everywhere you listen.